"The LORD gave and the LORD hath taken away, blessed be the name of the LORD" - Job 1:21

Posted at 2:07 PM, Monday, April 23, 2007

It's really hard to understand why things happen the way they do. I lost my mom on the night of 2nd April, 2007. It was the saddest moment in my life, yet I could not cry because of shock. I just don't understand why God chose this time to take her away, I wish I could have done something about it. But unfortunately, I could do nothing. I thank God that I at least got to see her an hour before she left.......we ended classes early that day thankfully. I don't know why I have to feel so bad about it, I mean I know she is with the Lord and I have struggle to be there too......but I just don't know what to do, I had soooo many plans of all 7 of us going to Europe or US this summer.....why did God not answer my prayers? I really don't understand any of it, all I know is that what God has done, He has done for the best because His will is perfect. I can't see the whole truth and that's why I question Him soo much, but I'll always remember this : He loves her more than I.

I really thank everyone at AAUN for their support and love during the one week when we (the Samuels') really needed encouragement. We missed one week of classes, but the wonderful professors said that it was no problem at all. And not just AAUN, but everyone in Yola who's cared for us during that week, especially our neighbours and mom & dad's friends in Adamawa. Everyone has been of great help and I pray to God to bless and reward each and everyone of them for their love and kindness.

I thank God for everything, it just brings to mind the words of a wonderful song "God is good all the time, even through the darkest night, His light always shines". Thank you Jesus for everything, and my prayer is that the Lord guides us all till the end of time, amen.

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